Man. This has been the craziest ride. I can finally announce that I will have my bachelor's degree of science in nursing a week from today. It feels absolutely surreal. I have been fighting an almost ten year battle with college, and to be able to say that I'm finished, I mean honestly - it makes me want to cry. I have been exhausted, frustrated, sad, angry and beaten down more often than I'd like to admit. I truly never thought I would make it. I've watched people I went to high school with complete college AND receive a master's degree in the time it took for me to finish my undergrad. I don't even really have a great excuse, either. Some people get married young, they start families, circumstances change... and my excuse is that I just kept failing. Over and over again. I started college in 2006 at UNC-Charlotte. I attended UNCC because almost all of my classmates from high school went to East Carolina or UNC or NC State, and I didn't want to go to school with those people anymore. I ventured out on my own and made some terrible life choices that created many setbacks. I finally felt free, but 18-year-old me wasn't invincible like I may have believed at the time.
I moved back to Raleigh after 2 years at UNCC (half because I knew I wouldn't get into the nursing program there, and half because of a boy). I figured I would attend Wake Tech for a semester and transfer to UNC for nursing. 3 years later in 2011 I graduated from Wake Tech with an associate's degree in arts. I guess that's fancy for saying I just took a bunch of classes in different studies that didn't mean anything towards a legitimate degree (now-a-days I suppose the term is "well-rounded"). I attempted to apply to Johnston Community College for nursing that year. Everything seemed to be falling into place - until they dropped the ball on me at the last minute that my CNA license that they required prior to admission wasn't acceptable due to how I obtained it (long story short - it was offered to me in high school as a bridge program after I completed the EMT course I took for my fourth period class). JCC told me that because I essentially "challenged" the test and skipped the clinical component that it wasn't legitimate. (Right here is a good time to say that I worked as a home health aide in Charlotte for 2 years, and at WakeMed as a CNA/US for 3 years). I was so distraught when they told me. I ended up taking the CNA class at Wake Tech with my health teacher from high school, and I didn't even have to take the test at the end because I was already on the board of nursing registry. It was a waste of money and time, and then I didn't even end up attending JCC after that. In a rush I applied to Central Carolina Community College in Sanford, NC and to my surprise, I got in. I started the nursing program in the Fall of 2011. Two months into nursing school, my boyfriend of over 4 years broke up with me. I was devastated, heartbroken, but most of all distracted. I made even more poor life choices and ended up failing out of that program in the first semester. After that, I felt like I had nowhere to go. I debated taking a few random classes because I was surprisingly close to finishing a degree in archaeology.
I ended up taking a semester off, and I worked full time and enjoyed myself. I was still getting over the break up, but I had a really good friend by my side that made most of my worries go away. (Shout out to Tanya for keeping me afloat during that shit storm). We went to Disney in April of 2012 and had a blast. Even today, I always refer back to that trip when I talk about Disney.
A friend of mine had started the nursing program and was halfway through her first semester at Barton College in the spring of 2012. We discussed my options, and I decided that it wouldn't hurt to apply. I applied that summer and received a phone call from the college that I had been accepted as a student. I was required to take the pre-nursing class in the fall, but that I was in and I could register for classes at that point. I took a bunch of nonsense classes to fill my full-time requirement, and was accepted into the nursing program with a 3.5 GPA (it started over at Barton). I began in the spring of 2013, and through an incredible amount of tears, stress, breakdowns, and all of the shitty things I had to endure from that school, I can finally say that I am finished. I'm not entirely ready to take the NCLEX yet, but that is the next step.
I have been offered and accepted a job at the children's hospital in Temple, Texas - and my start date is July 6th. I truly could not be happier or more excited for this next journey (AND I get to take that journey with my HUSBAND! :) More details on that later).